Thursday, August 28, 2014

31 Weeks



This week was great! We had our anniversary this weekend and we have almost finished our changing table (we are hand painting it). We also took a 4:30 am hospital trip this morning. Don't worry, both Piper and I are fine. Read on for more details. 

How far along: 31 weeks. I can't even believe how fast this is going!

Gender: A sweet baby girl! We are so excited to be adding a princess to our family!

Maternity clothes: Sure. I pretty much just wear leggings. I can wear my pre-maternity shirts. 

Stretch marks: Yes. No new ones. But now I have zits on my legs!!! And one on my stomach. That is not okay.

Belly button in or out: I think it's out. I mean, during the day it's not but at night after I have eaten, if I slouch it sticks out.  

Sleep: Hit and miss. I was actually sleeping REALLY well last night until I woke up to go to the hospital.  

Best moment this week: Our anniversary trip! It was so relaxing. Caleb booked me a prenatal massage. That was awesome. It was so much fun to be able to spend some quality time with my cute husband. 

Worst moment this week: Going to the hospital. Okay, here's the story. I woke up this morning around 4 because of a pain in my stomach. It hurt really bad, when I pressed on my abdomen it hurt even more. I tried to ignore it and go back to sleep but I couldn't. I finally woke Caleb up around 4:30 and asked him to take me to the hospital. As we were on our way I started to feel really sick to my stomach, like I was going to throw up. So we got there and they immediately took me back (a plus side to being there at such a crazy time). They set me up to a heart monitor and then they put a heart monitor on my belly for Piper. They monitored us for like half an hour. Piper hated it! It was so funny. After a minute or so she realized that this pressure on her home was not going away she started kicking it. For probably 15-20 minutes she was kicking it. Then she moved away from it once she realized her kicking wasn't doing anything. It put my mind at ease. While we were there I started to feel better and then I felt pretty silly for waking Caleb up to take me there, but he kept reminding me it was better to be safe than sorry. After monitoring us and such the doctor said that we were okay to go, but first they made me drink this yucky white stuff that numbed my digestive track. It was so gross. It was weird trying to swallow when my throat was numb. So, long story short, I'm okay, Piper is okay, no worries. 

Miss anything: Sleeping on my stomach, lunch meat sandwich.  

Movement: Yep! She's so funny, if I poke my stomach she won't budge, but the moment Caleb does it she moves around like crazy. She's already daddy's little girl. 

Cravings: Nope. 

Queasy or sick: Yeah, this morning.  

Looking forward to: Seeing my brother and sister in law this weekend! They are gonna try and stop by on their way back from a family reunion. I love Caleb's family and I love that they love me too :) 

Extra: Here's the registry link. http://www.target.com/GiftRegistrySearchViewCmd?registryType=BB&jsRequest=true&catalogId=10051&status=completePage&cumulativeTime=-1&listId=GXCHgkyVBN9G_dcj-V7vUQ&noOfPings=&registryFirstName=Rebekah&langId=-1&segmentGrpName=-1&storeId=10151&registryLastName=Hackett Just copy and past that huge thing in...or press here.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

30 Weeks


We had a doctor's appointment this week. I think my doctor is a little crazy. I'm 30 weeks and I'm still doing month to month appointments. How weird is that? Granted, he said that the next time we meet we will start going on a two week basis...so at 34 weeks. I'll start going twice a month? I also asked him how often I should be feeling Piper move. He said around 10 times a day. He said that those movements could be all at once or spread out throughout the day. So when I woke up yesterday I started keeping track of how often I felt her. In the first 30 minutes of being awake I had already felt her move 10 times and it just kept going throughout the day. It's too late to change doctors right? Oh! Good news, I passed my gestational diabetes test.

How far along: 30 weeks! Only 10 left!!!

Gender: A sweet baby girl! We are so excited to be adding a princess to our family!

Maternity clothes: Well, I lied last week. I tried my pre-maternity pants on. They fit, but not at all comfortable. My sweet husband bought me some maternity shirts. So I have a couple outfits now. 

Stretch marks: Yes. No new ones. Just the stupid ones I already found. I have Caleb check the bottom of my stomach just in case there are some I cannot see. 

Belly button in or out: Still not out! I cannot believe it. It's really shallow. But the very top of it is stubborn and will not allow it to pop out...yet anyways. 

Sleep: It's a hit and miss. Lately, mostly misses. So that's a bummer. 

Best moment this week: Finding the finishing touches for our maternity pictures. 

Worst moment this week: Not being able to sleep and feeling sick. 

Miss anything: Sleeping on my stomach.  

Movement: Yes :) Lots of it. I really think my doctor is crazy. Do you think he knows where the baby will come out of? ;)

Cravings: Nope. No cravings. I only have 10 weeks to get them!

Queasy or sick: Yes. I felt really sick on Monday. And I'm not feeling super great right now. 

Looking forward to: Our 1 year anniversary!!! Caleb is taking me somewhere this weekend to celebrate. I'm really excited. I love that I get to spend forever and ever with this guy. 

Extra: Here's the registry link. http://www.target.com/GiftRegistrySearchViewCmd?registryType=BB&jsRequest=true&catalogId=10051&status=completePage&cumulativeTime=-1&listId=GXCHgkyVBN9G_dcj-V7vUQ&noOfPings=&registryFirstName=Rebekah&langId=-1&segmentGrpName=-1&storeId=10151&registryLastName=Hackett Just copy and past that huge thing in...or press here.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

29 Weeks



What a boring week! I am trying to find things to occupy my time until our little one comes. So far I have cleaned out/reorganized our bedroom closet, storage space and linen closet. I have started and completed my anniversary present to Caleb, started and finished a book, and then started another. All of this in the past 5 days. I'm running out of things to do! 

How far along: 29 weeks!

Gender: A sweet baby girl! We are so excited to be adding a princess to our family!

Maternity clothes: I am no longer even trying to put on my pre-pregnancy pants. So now I am strictly wearing leggings, pajamas and my maternity pants...all two pairs of them. I can still wear my pre-pregnancy shirts. Which is good since apparently there are basically no maternity clothes in St. George. 

Stretch marks: Yes. No new ones. Just the stupid ones I already found. I have Caleb check the bottom of my stomach just in case there are some I cannot see. 

Belly button in or out: Still not out! I cannot believe it. It's really shallow. But the very top of it is stubborn and will not allow it to pop out...yet anyways. 

Sleep: This week was better than last! I hardly even had to use my pillows this week. How great is that? I'm sure it won't last, but it's nice for now. 

Best moment this week: Finding a dress for our maternity pictures! I am so in love with it and cannot wait to share it with you all. It made me feel beautiful and that is something I haven't felt in a long time. I actually looked in the mirror and smiled when I put it on. It's gorgeous. Also, seeing my friend Becca! I haven't seen her since she got back to STG so it was so exciting to see her and catch up a little. 

Worst moment this week: Shopping. Even though I found the perfect dress it was a rough go of it. We went to three stores, Kohls, JCPenney and Dillard's, none of them have maternity sections except for online. I know this is stupid, but I felt like I was being told that I was too fat to shop at normal stores. This is why I have no maternity clothes. So if any of you have cute maternity clothes you'd like to send me, I won't complain. I'm a size small :)

Miss anything: SUSHI AND A HAM SANDWICH! I cannot wait until I get to eat a stupid sandwich. If you didn't know, lunch meat can carry something called listeria which is VERY harmful for babies inside the womb. 11 more stinking weeks. 

Movement: Yes :) Lots of it. Nothing crazy painful or that keeps me up at night, but just her little flutterings of moving around and getting comfortable. If anything, it keeps me up just because I like to feel her. 

Cravings: Still no cravings. I'm so bummed. I was really hoping to get cravings for delicious icecream sundaes and stuff. Then Caleb would have to get them for me...not that he wouldn't get me one if I didn't ask. I so lucked out with this man of mine!

Queasy or sick: Nah, just back aches. There's basically no good position for sitting. 

Looking forward to: Our doctor's appointment on Tuesday. I am a little nervous about it though...I will be taking the gestational diabetes test and with my luck I'll probably come up positive. Plus, what if the drink is super gross? haha

Extra: Here's the registry link. http://www.target.com/GiftRegistrySearchViewCmd?registryType=BB&jsRequest=true&catalogId=10051&status=completePage&cumulativeTime=-1&listId=GXCHgkyVBN9G_dcj-V7vUQ&noOfPings=&registryFirstName=Rebekah&langId=-1&segmentGrpName=-1&storeId=10151&registryLastName=Hackett Just copy and past that huge thing in...or press here.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

A Page From My Diary

Pregnancy is weird. It is something that I have dreamed of my entire life. I wondered what it would feel like to feel my child moving inside of me. I imagined the "glow" I would get and how people would comment on it. I thought of my rounded belly and how I would cherish it. How I would wear clothes to accentuate, not hide, my bump and that I would be in love with this growing tummy of mine.
In reality, pregnancy is hard. I wake up every morning holding my breath to feel the flutterings of my baby. Until I feel those flutterings, I know that my heart could break. If I don't feel her then she's not here anymore. I love to feel her, not because of some special bond, but because it is proof that she is alive, that I am keeping her alive and that my best is enough...for now.
I do not believe I have been privileged with the glow people talk of. In fact, I think it may be the opposite. My face is splotchy and a little dull in color.
I do not feel comfortable in my own body. Although I am relatively the same, my stomach protrudes and it is difficult for me to look at. Logically, I know. I know that it is my baby, not me. I know that the 15 pounds I have gained since getting pregnant is my baby, not me. I know that I am not fat, I am pregnant. But it doesn't matter, because when I look in the mirror or try to wear pre-maternity clothes, all I see is a fat stranger. Someone I do not know.
For most of my life I have been convinced that to have value to a man means that I have to be beautiful and to be beautiful I have to be skinny. Luckily, I married a man who proves to me everyday that my value is more than anything physical. But it's hard to teach an old dog new tricks. When I look in the mirror at the ugly skin and rotund stomach, what I see is my declining value.
This is not what I expected.
But it is worth it.
Seeing Caleb's excitement when he gets to feel her kick. Worth it.
Planning our parenting techniques, starry-eyed as only new parents can be. Worth it.
Thinking of our future and imagining it with our daughter. Worth it.
The tender moments in the doctor's office when we get to hear her heartbeat. Worth it.
The fact that Caleb tears up every time we hear it. Worth it.
The excitement I get out of her teeny little baby shoes and the thought of her wearing them. Worth it.
She is worth fighting my demons. She is worth the pain and heartache, the worry. She is worth the held breathes and the middle of the night bathroom runs. She is my baby. I love her.
She's worth it all.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

28 Weeks





Our Sweet P is getting bigger and bigger! It's so crazy. I wish that she could get bigger and I could stay the same size. I feel huge, I know about half of you want to smack me right now, but I do! I look at other pregnant ladies and they have this tiny, cute belly that is just in one area, like their lower belly or something, but mine is the whole thing! My entire stomach has expanded. It makes me feel like a giant walrus. 12 more weeks and then I can work on getting my body back!

How far along: 28 weeks!

Gender: A sweet baby girl! We are so excited to be adding a princess to our family!

Maternity clothes: I can still fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans, and button them. As soon as I sit down I feel like I'm going to die from how tight they are around my waist, but I can still wear them! I usually don't though. Most days I'm in a dress or my pajamas. It seems like such a waste of money to buy maternity clothes when I won't be wearing them much longer. I have one maternity dress, two maternity shirts and one pair of maternity pants. 

Stretch marks: Yes. No new ones. Just the stupid ones I found last week. 

Belly button in or out: Not out yet. I'm really surprised it's not out yet. The sides of it started hurting last night...is that normal? Caleb says it's probably because it's kind of getting stretched out. 

Sleep: This week has been a little more difficult. I HAVE to have a pillow between my legs at all times. Not just, like between my knees, but a full-sized pillow keeping my legs apart. The worst part of sleep is waking up. My shoulders are sore because they have been squished together all night and my back is sore because it hasn't had any relief. I cannot wait until I can sleep on my stomach again. 

Best moment this week: Celebrating Caleb's birthday :) We went swimming at Quail Creek, which is definitely not a creek, on Saturday. We took our floaties out and swam/floated across the "creek". We both got a little sunburned, but nothing that made life too uncomfortable. On Sunday I gave him a present every hour until the time he was born :) It was a fun and simple day, but I think he enjoyed it. 

Worst moment this week: People. Sometimes people blow things up out of proportion, or there's a miscommunication error and it just sets off unneeded drama.  

Miss anything: Not feeling like a fatty. 

Movement: Yep. There was one day where she was moving so much I felt sick all day, and then after that she seems to have settled down and her movements aren't as strong. 

Cravings: At this point I don't think I'm going to get cravings. I would like cravings though. It's better to crave food than not want it at all. 

Queasy or sick: A little sick this week when she was moving like crazy. And even a little queasy right now...yuck. 

Looking forward to: Finishing up Piper's changing table. Caleb and I are painting it :) It's a bigger project than I thought it was going to be!

Extra: Here's the registry link. http://www.target.com/GiftRegistrySearchViewCmd?registryType=BB&jsRequest=true&catalogId=10051&status=completePage&cumulativeTime=-1&listId=GXCHgkyVBN9G_dcj-V7vUQ&noOfPings=&registryFirstName=Rebekah&langId=-1&segmentGrpName=-1&storeId=10151&registryLastName=Hackett Just copy and past that huge thing in...or press here.