Would You Still Be Here?

What if I had been better at taking care of myself?
If I had been better at taking my thyroid medicine,
If I ate better, worked out more?
Would you still be here?

What if I was a better mom to your sister?
If I wasn't quick to anger,
If I had more patience?
Would you still be here?

What if I hadn't cried to the Lord?
If I hadn't been so scared,
If I hadn't let my fear tell me I couldn't be a mom of two?
Would you still be here?

What if I lose you next time?
If I have to feel this way again,
If I'm not good enough again?
Will you give me another chance?