Dear Piper,
What a year you have had! Right after you turned one you went on your first plane to Ohio! You got to meet your Aunt Abby and Grandma Polly. Everyone was so sad because Grandpa Burr had passed away, but having you around brought a little bit of joy to an otherwise sad situation.
In February you and Mommy were separated for the first time when I went to a work conference in Florida. You did so good though! You got to play with GiGi and Daddy and they loved on you so you didn't even notice I was gone. In May you started nursery and Toddler Lab at BYU-Idaho. You loved nursery on your first day, but took a little more convincing over the next few weeks. Toddler Lab was a hard adjustment for you. You weren't use to being somewhere without Mommy and Daddy, and it didn't help that you had a lot of little ones crying in your classroom! Toddler Lab was never your favorite thing, but you did learn to be tolerant of going and you loved when you got to play outside in the little cars!
In July you got to spend a week with Grammy and PaPaw so Mommy and Daddy could go to Florida to celebrate my graduation, Daddy's birthday and our wedding anniversary. You were such a trooper! You missed Daddy way more than you missed Mommy, but you've been so use to Daddy always being home with you that my feelings weren't hurt...too much.
In August you stopped sleeping with your bottle! This was a huge step! You helped Mommy and Daddy pack it up and send it to your cousin Macie because she's a baby and still needed a bottle, but you are a big girl! You were heartbroken not to have your bottle anymore, but Mommy's heart broke even more knowing that you aren't a baby anymore.
Then, in October, you went on your second plane ride to attend your great-grandpa's funeral in Indiana. While there you met so many new people! Lots of uncles, aunts and cousins, plus your Great-Grammy. You also got to meet one of Mommy's favorite people, Teresa Smith. I promise your next flight will be for something happier than a funeral!
You have grown up so much this year.Your vocabulary has flourished and it seems like you are constantly learning new words! Today you told me all about how two little girls weren't "nice" while you were playing in the "car" at Chick-fil-a.
You have made new friends, found a love for babies, and fallen for fishes and monsters. You would watch Finding Nemo and Monster's University all day every day if we let you.
You are so stubborn and full of life. You know what you want and you won't let anyone change your mind. There is nothing you cannot do.
You are two. Two has become your favorite word. My heart hurts thinking that the last two years have gone by so quickly, I know that the next 16 will go even quicker and then you will be on your own starting college.
You love tickles, singing songs, chasing Mommy and Daddy with oven mitts, pretending they are monsters. You change every day.
You have to sleep with all of your favorite stuffed animals, a monkey, a dog, a monster (Sullivan), Mommy's teddy bear, Samson, and now, your giant Dory fish. Oh, and your twin size fleece fish blanket. Your crib is packed!
You love giving eskimo and butterfly kisses and will hand them out ten at a time when Mommy is trying to put you to bed, you know where my weak spot is!
Banner is still your best friend and worst enemy. You guys fight like siblings.
In 15 days you'll get to meet your Uncle Isaiah. The last time you saw him you were only 2 weeks old! I know it will be a strange adjustment for you, but you will love him as much as I know he already loves you.
Piper, you have no idea how much you are loved. There are no words to describe the love that everyone has for you. I cannot imagine that there has been or ever will be a child who is loved as much as you are. You bring joy to everyone you meet. You are sunshine. I pray you never lose sight of your goodness.
We love you Sweet P.
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
Wednesday, November 2, 2016
Friday, June 24, 2016
5K Training...Day One
It's been a long time since I wrote about me. I am mostly writing this as a form of therapy, but also with the hope that you, dear reader, will have encouraging words and kind advice.
Physicality has never been my strong suit. My entire life I have steered clear of anything where I would be exposed for the out of shape loser I thought myself to be. I thought if I pretended to hate sports, to hate being active, maybe no one would ever find out. Maybe they'd never know that I get breathless walking up a hill to class, they'd never find out that I can't run for longer than a minute. If I never participated, they'd never know.
This manner of thinking held me back. In high school when my friends played in the Powder Puff football game, I stayed home. My freshman year of college I tried to reinvent myself and I played soccer with some friends, but when I attempted to play my best, it wasn't good enough and they never passed me the ball, so I reverted.
Today I did something I never thought I'd do. I went running. Everyone who knows me was shocked by the decision I made to train for a 5k. I knew it would be hard on me physically. I prepared myself for the sore muscles and tired feet, but I had no idea how hard it would be for me mentally and emotionally.
Day one of the Couch Potato to 5k program. A 30 minute workout with interval running, run for one minute, walk for the next, and so on. When I read this yesterday I thought, "I can do that, heck, I can do more than that!" I grossly overestimated myself. I finished running the first minute and thought, "You are a fool, you cannot do this. You are weak. You have always been weak." I pushed past my thoughts to continue, and finish, my first day of training. But I came home defeated. I felt weak, embarrassed and foolish. All of my old insecurities came back.
I cried, I wallowed in self pity. I allowed my husband into my deepest, scariest, most vulnerable place and he brought light. He reminded me of who I am, of what I have already done. He expressed how proud of me he is and that he will be there for every step of this journey.
I would like to report that something has clicked between then and now, that I was able to take those insecurities and thoughts from my head and hide them in Pandora's Box, never to be opened, but sadly, that has not happened. However, I have been rallied behind and lifted up by my sweet husband and my wonderful parents. I have looked into my baby's eyes and remembered that I am creating a legacy of health and wellness for my daughter. I have recommitted to myself to keep going, to keep pushing, because come September I will be running my first 5k.
It won't be easy. I have 24 years of mental roadblocks to run over, but I can do it. I am capable. I will be strong. My body can do and has done amazing things. With the support of my family, and hopefully you, I know I can accomplish my goals.
Physicality has never been my strong suit. My entire life I have steered clear of anything where I would be exposed for the out of shape loser I thought myself to be. I thought if I pretended to hate sports, to hate being active, maybe no one would ever find out. Maybe they'd never know that I get breathless walking up a hill to class, they'd never find out that I can't run for longer than a minute. If I never participated, they'd never know.
This manner of thinking held me back. In high school when my friends played in the Powder Puff football game, I stayed home. My freshman year of college I tried to reinvent myself and I played soccer with some friends, but when I attempted to play my best, it wasn't good enough and they never passed me the ball, so I reverted.
Today I did something I never thought I'd do. I went running. Everyone who knows me was shocked by the decision I made to train for a 5k. I knew it would be hard on me physically. I prepared myself for the sore muscles and tired feet, but I had no idea how hard it would be for me mentally and emotionally.
Day one of the Couch Potato to 5k program. A 30 minute workout with interval running, run for one minute, walk for the next, and so on. When I read this yesterday I thought, "I can do that, heck, I can do more than that!" I grossly overestimated myself. I finished running the first minute and thought, "You are a fool, you cannot do this. You are weak. You have always been weak." I pushed past my thoughts to continue, and finish, my first day of training. But I came home defeated. I felt weak, embarrassed and foolish. All of my old insecurities came back.
I cried, I wallowed in self pity. I allowed my husband into my deepest, scariest, most vulnerable place and he brought light. He reminded me of who I am, of what I have already done. He expressed how proud of me he is and that he will be there for every step of this journey.
I would like to report that something has clicked between then and now, that I was able to take those insecurities and thoughts from my head and hide them in Pandora's Box, never to be opened, but sadly, that has not happened. However, I have been rallied behind and lifted up by my sweet husband and my wonderful parents. I have looked into my baby's eyes and remembered that I am creating a legacy of health and wellness for my daughter. I have recommitted to myself to keep going, to keep pushing, because come September I will be running my first 5k.
It won't be easy. I have 24 years of mental roadblocks to run over, but I can do it. I am capable. I will be strong. My body can do and has done amazing things. With the support of my family, and hopefully you, I know I can accomplish my goals.
Monday, May 2, 2016
18 Months
It has been six months since I shared on our blog! Although, this feels more like a journal I'm keeping to Piper rather than a blog. These past six months have been crazy for our family and I'm not going to lie, writing Piper's 18 month update is very bittersweet for me. No, I'm not baby hungry, I don't want another baby, I want my little Piper baby. I love watching her grow and learn, but I am scared. The older she gets the less she needs for me to do for her, physically, but the more she relies on me spiritually, emotionally and mentally. I don't know if I'm up for the challenge. I could do the late night feedings, the cuddles, teaching her how to roll over, crawl, walk and run, but can I do the rest? How do I know if I'm doing all I can to teach her to love Jesus, how to be safe, how to be kind? The older she gets the less influence I have and the more the world comes into play. How do I teach her to block out the world?
PHEW! Didn't mean to get into all of that, but I'll admit it felt good to write that out, so thank you for reading my insecurities. On to Piper...
When did time speed up?!?!?! The things Piper can't do grows smaller every day. She still loves meeting new people, although she is a little more wary (which makes my momma heart a little more at peace). Piper loves all animals and has grown quite attached to her puppy, Banner. They've loved each other since day one, but now Piper doesn't even like it if he goes outside and she can't see him. They wrestle like brother and sister and that sweet puppy just lets her yank on him. He is such a good dog and has been a wonderful addition to our family, no matter what anyone else may say. Not only does Piper love real animals, but she loves her stuffed animals! She will no longer sleep without her lovey, Samson, a teddy bear that originally belonged to Mommy and Piper commandeered.
Piper has found a new love for babies. She has two baby dolls that she enjoys feeding, clothing and changing their diapers. She also loves real babies and gives them as many hugs (more like forceful squeezes) as she can. Mommy and Daddy may not be baby hungry, but Piper sure is! Sometimes when we are outside she can hear our neighbor's baby crying and she always goes over to their door in great concern for the baby.
Piper loves to read and reads all of her books on a daily basis. She is learning how to clean up after herself and throw things in the trash, whether it's trash or not. She enjoys unloading the dishwasher and moving the clothes from the washer to the dryer.
One of her favorite things to do is play outside. She loves running around and having fun! Just like a toddler (gasp!) should.
Piper's favorite food is anything that is in Mommy and Daddy's hands, even if it's the same thing on her plate. We recently discarded her high chair and she now sits at the table in a booster seat.
She continues to sing and dance, her favorite songs are the Itsy Bitsy Spider, If You're Happy and You Know It and Head Shoulders Knees and Toes. We sing these on repeat in our car.
Piper loves to do her makeup and puts it on any chance she gets. She also loves to brush her teeth and gets really excited when she "blinds" Mommy with how white they are after brushing.
Piper talks a lot! She especially loves taking anything that resembles a phone and talking on it while walking around with her "purse" (aka her basket from Easter). Most of what she says is still babbles, but she does have a lot of single words, we just haven't formed them to make phrases yet.
She says multiple animal noises, Jesus, hi, bye, more, please, eat, yes, no, Mom, Dad, cheese, ear, eye, Ban (for Banner), and more.
Piper has learned all the parts of her face, eyes, mouth, nose, teeth, and ears.
She is starting to understand what the potty is. She will sometimes go to the toilet and start to pull her pants down. We will then help her take her diaper off and sit her on the toilet, wipe and flush. She hasn't actually gone to the bathroom in the toilet yet, but we aren't worried about potty training right now, this is just good practice for her.
Piper starts nursery next Sunday and then Toddler Lab the Tuesday after that. Toddler Lab is a class on campus for toddlers 18mo. to 2 years old that is taught by students in the education and child development major as part of their required curriculum. I had the opportunity to teach it last semester and now Piper is going to be able to attend. We are so excited for the friends she will make and the things she will learn in both nursery and Lab, but I feel a little weird about turning over some of the responsibility of teaching to someone other than myself and my husband.
There is so much more I could tell you about our sweet little girl. She continues to be a light in trying times. She is the reason we work as hard as we do in school and with our business. She is everything to us and there has never been a more adored child in the history of the world. It astounds me that there was even a life to live before her.
These next 6 months promise to be filled with more laughter and learning. As sad as I am to see my little baby disappear, I am excited to see all the growing that will take place.
PHEW! Didn't mean to get into all of that, but I'll admit it felt good to write that out, so thank you for reading my insecurities. On to Piper...
When did time speed up?!?!?! The things Piper can't do grows smaller every day. She still loves meeting new people, although she is a little more wary (which makes my momma heart a little more at peace). Piper loves all animals and has grown quite attached to her puppy, Banner. They've loved each other since day one, but now Piper doesn't even like it if he goes outside and she can't see him. They wrestle like brother and sister and that sweet puppy just lets her yank on him. He is such a good dog and has been a wonderful addition to our family, no matter what anyone else may say. Not only does Piper love real animals, but she loves her stuffed animals! She will no longer sleep without her lovey, Samson, a teddy bear that originally belonged to Mommy and Piper commandeered.
Piper has found a new love for babies. She has two baby dolls that she enjoys feeding, clothing and changing their diapers. She also loves real babies and gives them as many hugs (more like forceful squeezes) as she can. Mommy and Daddy may not be baby hungry, but Piper sure is! Sometimes when we are outside she can hear our neighbor's baby crying and she always goes over to their door in great concern for the baby.
Piper loves to read and reads all of her books on a daily basis. She is learning how to clean up after herself and throw things in the trash, whether it's trash or not. She enjoys unloading the dishwasher and moving the clothes from the washer to the dryer.
One of her favorite things to do is play outside. She loves running around and having fun! Just like a toddler (gasp!) should.
Piper's favorite food is anything that is in Mommy and Daddy's hands, even if it's the same thing on her plate. We recently discarded her high chair and she now sits at the table in a booster seat.
She continues to sing and dance, her favorite songs are the Itsy Bitsy Spider, If You're Happy and You Know It and Head Shoulders Knees and Toes. We sing these on repeat in our car.
Piper loves to do her makeup and puts it on any chance she gets. She also loves to brush her teeth and gets really excited when she "blinds" Mommy with how white they are after brushing.
Piper talks a lot! She especially loves taking anything that resembles a phone and talking on it while walking around with her "purse" (aka her basket from Easter). Most of what she says is still babbles, but she does have a lot of single words, we just haven't formed them to make phrases yet.
She says multiple animal noises, Jesus, hi, bye, more, please, eat, yes, no, Mom, Dad, cheese, ear, eye, Ban (for Banner), and more.
Piper has learned all the parts of her face, eyes, mouth, nose, teeth, and ears.
She is starting to understand what the potty is. She will sometimes go to the toilet and start to pull her pants down. We will then help her take her diaper off and sit her on the toilet, wipe and flush. She hasn't actually gone to the bathroom in the toilet yet, but we aren't worried about potty training right now, this is just good practice for her.
Piper starts nursery next Sunday and then Toddler Lab the Tuesday after that. Toddler Lab is a class on campus for toddlers 18mo. to 2 years old that is taught by students in the education and child development major as part of their required curriculum. I had the opportunity to teach it last semester and now Piper is going to be able to attend. We are so excited for the friends she will make and the things she will learn in both nursery and Lab, but I feel a little weird about turning over some of the responsibility of teaching to someone other than myself and my husband.
There is so much more I could tell you about our sweet little girl. She continues to be a light in trying times. She is the reason we work as hard as we do in school and with our business. She is everything to us and there has never been a more adored child in the history of the world. It astounds me that there was even a life to live before her.
These next 6 months promise to be filled with more laughter and learning. As sad as I am to see my little baby disappear, I am excited to see all the growing that will take place.
Monday, November 2, 2015
Dear Piper...Year One
It shocks me to be writing her one year blog post. How is it possible that she has been in our lives for a whole year? It's the strangest thing, your first born turning one, it feels crazy that the past year went so quickly, but then you have to pause and try to remember what life was even like before she was born! She has changed our lives so much!
I'm going to be doing this post a little differently then you are all use to. Growing up my mom always wrote us birthday letters and that is something I have looked forward to doing for Piper. Today is a crazy day and I'm not sure when I'll get time to put pen to paper, so for now, her letter will be here on the blog until I can copy it into her journal.
Dear Piper,
As I sit here writing your first official birthday letter tears immediately come to my eyes. Before you were born your Daddy and I had a feeling that you were going to be something special. We knew that you would bring joy and light into the lives of others. We knew that we were going to have to share you with the world. Every second of your life on this Earth has proven to us that our suspicions were true. There is not one person you have come in contact with that you haven't been able to put a smile on their face. You love people. You enjoy smiling at anyone who looks your way. Usually your radiant smile is enough to make a grown man weak in the knees, and if that isn't enough you have just started doing a slow blink/wink that is sure to make anyone watching laugh. You love making others laugh.
This year has been full of memories. You moved two times! You have made so many friends, both adults and babies, and continue to surprise us!
Piper, you have shown that you are a little bit like Mommy in how you develop. If you can't do it perfectly yet then you'd rather just not do it. Somehow, you still hit almost all of your milestones early! What a wonderful little over achiever. You are now walking everywhere. You hardly ever crawl anymore. It is such a joy to watch you toddle around.
You are beginning to say more and more words. Today in the store I put bananas in our cart and you decided you wanted one. So, at the top of your lungs, you screamed, "NANA!" until we left the store. I love how stubborn you are.
I am astounded by how much you've changed, but by how little your personality has changed. It just strengthens my testimony that you, and all of Heavenly Father's children, are born just the way they should be. Things you loved as an infant you still love! Your personality is only developing, not changing.
In one year you have given your Daddy and I more happiness then we know what to do with. Everything we do revolves around you.
I pray that we will be able to keep your light shining bright. I worry about the world diming your sweet spirit. Daddy and I will always be here to add fuel to your light when it gets low. We love you. We love you more than you can comprehend.
Happy Birthday my Sweet Girl.
Love,
Mommy
I'm going to be doing this post a little differently then you are all use to. Growing up my mom always wrote us birthday letters and that is something I have looked forward to doing for Piper. Today is a crazy day and I'm not sure when I'll get time to put pen to paper, so for now, her letter will be here on the blog until I can copy it into her journal.
Dear Piper,
As I sit here writing your first official birthday letter tears immediately come to my eyes. Before you were born your Daddy and I had a feeling that you were going to be something special. We knew that you would bring joy and light into the lives of others. We knew that we were going to have to share you with the world. Every second of your life on this Earth has proven to us that our suspicions were true. There is not one person you have come in contact with that you haven't been able to put a smile on their face. You love people. You enjoy smiling at anyone who looks your way. Usually your radiant smile is enough to make a grown man weak in the knees, and if that isn't enough you have just started doing a slow blink/wink that is sure to make anyone watching laugh. You love making others laugh.
This year has been full of memories. You moved two times! You have made so many friends, both adults and babies, and continue to surprise us!
Piper, you have shown that you are a little bit like Mommy in how you develop. If you can't do it perfectly yet then you'd rather just not do it. Somehow, you still hit almost all of your milestones early! What a wonderful little over achiever. You are now walking everywhere. You hardly ever crawl anymore. It is such a joy to watch you toddle around.
You are beginning to say more and more words. Today in the store I put bananas in our cart and you decided you wanted one. So, at the top of your lungs, you screamed, "NANA!" until we left the store. I love how stubborn you are.
I am astounded by how much you've changed, but by how little your personality has changed. It just strengthens my testimony that you, and all of Heavenly Father's children, are born just the way they should be. Things you loved as an infant you still love! Your personality is only developing, not changing.
In one year you have given your Daddy and I more happiness then we know what to do with. Everything we do revolves around you.
I pray that we will be able to keep your light shining bright. I worry about the world diming your sweet spirit. Daddy and I will always be here to add fuel to your light when it gets low. We love you. We love you more than you can comprehend.
Happy Birthday my Sweet Girl.
Love,
Mommy
Tuesday, October 6, 2015
11 Months
It's crazy to think that this time next month we will be celebrating my daughter's first birthday. I'm pretty sure that she was just a tiny 7 lb. baby yesterday. I don't even remember what life was like without her. Heck, was there life without her? Living took on a whole new meaning when she came into the world. She drives me crazy. She cries. She screams. She throws things just to get a reaction from me. The sassiness level of this girl is through the roof. And yet, somehow she is still the sweetest, silliest, most loving person ever.
Piper is afraid of no one. She continues to throw herself into stranger's arms without hesitation. (Be still my heart!) She loves everyone. We have yet to come across a person she didn't like. She is especially fond of our neighbor, Will, and hugs him every chance she gets.
This month she learned how to walk and climb. She also learned how to bite...
Piper got a puppy for her early birthday present. His name is Banner. She is very good at pushing him around. Very good.
Piper eats constantly. She loves food. She especially loves food she can feed to herself and attempts to use a spoon. One of her favorite things to do while I'm feeding her is bite down on the spoon. She laughs and laughs as I "pry" it from her mouth.
Piper learned how to make clacking sounds with her mouth, which we believe she thinks is a kissing sound.
Her favorite task is to pull all the books off the bookshelf and then sit in her mess.
She likes to eat dog food, probably just because I said not to.
As always, she is dancing and singing everyday. She is the best thing ever.
Piper continues to babble and said her first word on purpose, No!
She loves coming on campus with Mommy and playing with her friends.
Her favorite toy is Big Baby, mommy's baby doll when she was little.
What a life we have.
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
10 Months Old
"Time stand still I order you,
no minutes pass until I'm through,
doing what I have to do.
Time stand still I order you."
Just got that lovely spell off of http://www.spellsofmagic.com/.
Did it work? Is Piper going to stay little forever now? Because, seriously, my heart can't handle this growing up stuff! Remember when she was so little and now she is 8 weeks away from being 1! That is not okay people! Not okay!
Piper now has seven teeth. You heard me, seven. Three on top and four on bottom. Teething is my worst nightmare. We are still working on her one-year molars. I have to tell you, I'm over teething. My daughter is the happiest baby you could ever meet, until she starts teething. Then an angry monster comes to play. A monster that is particularly fond of crying and not sleeping.
She can now stand on her own without the support of anything/one, but usually won't because she only stands to reach something someone is holding and once she has it she is very content to sit down and explore whatever she just took. Piper has also taken a couple of steps but prefers to crawl because it's faster! Seriously, this baby is always on the move. Caleb and I are convinced that she knows how to walk, but because it's not faster than crawling she won't do it.
Piper says "mama," "dada," and "nana".
Her new favorite thing is Elmo. I don't like to let her watch TV but it is truly the only way I can make her stop moving so I can feed her! She'll be in her highchair trying to twist and turn and hit the spoon out of my hand until I turn it on and then she's calm. She definitely knows how to get her way.
She now eats Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner of solids with bottles in between. She will only allow you to cuddle with her if she is drinking a bottle and sometimes not even that secures your cuddle time.
Piper can now wave hello and goodbye and clap her hands, although she would much rather make someone else clap.
She loves to make messes, read books, play outside and go for walks. She loves when Daddy tickles her.
Piper is starting to show preference to people, especially her mom, but still loves interacting with everyone! She loves going to the store and smiling and waving at strangers. And let me tell you, strangers love it too.
I know a lot of mom's say things like this, but I promise you, there is not a happier baby than Piper. Before she was born Caleb and I had a distinct feeling that one of her purposes in this life is to bring joy and happiness to others, to be a light in the darkness. At only 10 months old I am already seeing this come to pass. She brightens up everyone's day. Always ready to smile and remind you of the simple things in life. Piper's smile is a little piece of heaven.
Thursday, August 20, 2015
Is it Just Me?
I want to preface this by saying that there is nothing more rewarding in my entire life than being a mom. I love how silly Piper is. I love watching her learn to stand, walk, say "Dada" and "Mama". I love how she's figured out how to open the containers to her favorite foods. I love watching her splash in the tub. I love everything about her. But I don't love everything about motherhood.
Sometimes, being a mom is lonely. I am the only one of my friends to have a baby. I'm not very good at making friends either. Very few of my friends are married. Almost all of my friends here in Rexburg are single. I've found that I've lost more friends since having a baby then ever before.
Caleb works everyday so that we can save a large amount of money between our two jobs before school starts again. I am alone with Piper 12+ hours a day, 5 days a week. It's lonely. Our neighbors have little girls. Three neighbors, three little girls, all age two. Piper can't run around and play on the swingset with them. I often feel left out when they get together and watch their daughters run around. It's probably my own fault. I guess I could go out there, but that feels awkward.
I wouldn't give up my life for anything. In it's own simplistic way, it is everything I've ever wanted.
Being a mom means that I never shower by myself.
It means that my meals are eaten in secret.
Because I'm a mom I no longer have control over my heart.
It lives outside of me.
Being a mom means that my days are filled with dirty diapers and slobbery kisses.
It means that I'm never alone, yet starving for conversation.
Because I'm a mom my life is complete.
Life is complete.
I guess what I'm saying is, if more of my friends could get married and have babies, that'd be great.
Sometimes, being a mom is lonely. I am the only one of my friends to have a baby. I'm not very good at making friends either. Very few of my friends are married. Almost all of my friends here in Rexburg are single. I've found that I've lost more friends since having a baby then ever before.
Caleb works everyday so that we can save a large amount of money between our two jobs before school starts again. I am alone with Piper 12+ hours a day, 5 days a week. It's lonely. Our neighbors have little girls. Three neighbors, three little girls, all age two. Piper can't run around and play on the swingset with them. I often feel left out when they get together and watch their daughters run around. It's probably my own fault. I guess I could go out there, but that feels awkward.
I wouldn't give up my life for anything. In it's own simplistic way, it is everything I've ever wanted.
Being a mom means that I never shower by myself.
It means that my meals are eaten in secret.
Because I'm a mom I no longer have control over my heart.
It lives outside of me.
Being a mom means that my days are filled with dirty diapers and slobbery kisses.
It means that I'm never alone, yet starving for conversation.
Because I'm a mom my life is complete.
Life is complete.
I guess what I'm saying is, if more of my friends could get married and have babies, that'd be great.
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