9 Months Old

Bah! Say it ain't so! My baby cannot be 3 months away from a year old! Absolutely not. No. No. No. This isn't happening! I am in full on denial. FULL ON PEOPLE.
Piper has been teething for the past couple of weeks. It's been really rough. She no longer falls asleep on her own for naps or bedtime. We know it's because her mouth hurts and we try to be patient. I'd be lying if I said that when she fell asleep in my arms I didn't relish in the moment.
She isn't walking on her own yet, but she walks around our living room holding on to whatever she can, the coffee table, the couch, mommy's knee, you know, whatever. Piper is almost standing on her own. She seriously never stops moving so when she gets the courage to stand on her own she falls pretty soon after. I think the record is like 10 seconds. Piper is truly the happiest, silliest baby. She continues to love meeting new people, but is starting to show preference to mommy over everyone else. She babbles all day long, usually "dadada" and "lalala" until her Daddy tries to put her to sleep. Then she yells "mamama" at the top of her lungs.
Piper's favorite book is her animal book. She loves when Mommy makes the kitty cat and doggie noises. Her favorite time of day is when Dad comes home from work. She hears the keys in the door and immediately perks up. She rushes to the baby gate and waits for him to come talk to her. They squeal and giggle. Piper sure loves her Daddy. We are so blessed to have him in our lives.
She has started giving new looks and they are FULL of sass. She kind of tucks her head down and looks up at me with her great big blue eyes and "you're stupid" is written all over her face.
Piper loves having her name put into songs. Her entire face lights up when you start singing to her and usually she'll even dance along!
Our lives are so full. We have been blessed with the most wonderful little girl. Caleb and I thank God everyday for the joy that parenthood has brought to us. In a time where our world is getting a little crazier everyday we are grateful for the knowledge of the Gospel and the peace and security it gives us in raising our daughter.

Eight Months Old

These past months have gone by so fast. Truly, there is no possible way I will have a one year old in 4 months! That cannot be. Caleb loves watching her grow and it doesn't seem to phase him that she is growing so quickly. I, on the other hand, and considering putting all our money in a time machine. I just want to go back and savor those quiet moments again. We don't have many quiet moments anymore.
Piper has learned many new things this month. She has begun to try and stand on her own, which is terrifying in it's own right. One of my favorite new things is how she constantly sticks her tongue out, especially while she's crawling. Another funny thing she has started to do is put something in her mouth, like a toy or a book, and crawl around with it. I think she's trying to tell us she wants a dog.
Piper has almost outgrown her car seat weight limit. She is currently at 20 lbs and is about 2 and a half feet tall. She is so big!
She has gotten so silly. Piper loves to shake us when we pretend to be asleep. Her favorite food is anything sweet, but she especially likes frozen bananas. Somehow she has learned how to whine. I know what you are all thinking, but there is no way she learned that from me ;) When she gets hungry or tired she follows us around just whining. She has also learned that when she holds up her arms someone will come pick her up.
For about 2 weeks Piper forgot how to fall asleep by herself and we had to sleep train all over again. That was a pain. But she fell asleep on her own for her last nap yesterday and bed-time, so hopefully that's over with. Piper continues to love reading and music. She even sings along to the hymns at church. She loves shoes, like any typical girl and watching Mommy put on makeup. She also loves to talk! Piper will talk to anyone, but my favorite is when she is playing with her toys and starts babbling to herself.
Piper loves going swimming. She doesn't like the splash pad very much, but put her in a pool and she's a happy girl! Piper also loves strangers. She smiles and coos at everyone! Our baby girl loves to make us laugh and if we are upset she'll crawl over and start babbling, laughing and making us smile. She has the sweetest spirit.
Even though I hate that my baby isn't so much of a baby anymore I am so grateful that I get to watch her grow into the amazing little girl I know she will be.

For anyone who cares, Caleb and I are doing great. We have about 3 weeks of school left until this semester is over. Then we are moving! We are moving into a townhome down the road from where we are now and are super excited about it. I just promoted at work and am so close to getting a $10,000 bonus! Life is good over here at the Hackett house.

Only 5 Months Left...

Princess Piper is seven months old! She is officially closer to being a year old than a newborn. Hold on while I get the tissues! I am ready to bawl my eyes out! She has grown up so fast!
Piper has her front bottom two teeth and is working on her top teeth now! She takes all her naps in her crib and sleeps through the night...most of the time...in her crib. She does wake up every once in a while during the night, but she usually has just rolled herself into the corner of her crib and needs help getting out. She sleeps like a little grown up. Swaddling is a thing of the past. She loves to roll all over, sleep on her tummy or side and have a fan going. She no longer takes a pacifier (easiest transition ever) and is almost going to sleep without a bottle of milk.
This month Piper made a new friend who taught her how to crawl and pull herself up on furniture. She has now mastered both! She can pull herself all the way up on the furniture and has even started trying to push herself up to standing from the floor! She just started crawling and she's already trying to walk! So rude. It's like she wants to grow up! Piper can also push herself up into the sitting position from lying down!
She loves to crawl and explore everything around her. We can't keep her out of anything! She loves everything we've put in front of her, green beans, sweet potatoes, peas, bananas, etc. If it's food she'll eat it. Seriously, I dare you to find a food she will not eat.
Piper loves to give kisses, although it feels more like she's eating your face. She also loves to eat remotes and anything else electronic. She likes her toys, though she'd rather play with everything she's not suppose to play with. Piper loves songs and tries to sing along with the radio. She is very ticklish! We recently found out that the back of her neck is ticklish. She continues to love meeting new people and smiling at them. I don't know where she gets it from, but she is very outgoing! She most definitely did not get that from me.
Piper loves getting to see her Grammy, PaPaw, Gigi, all her aunts and uncles and her cousin Parker. Hopefully she'll get to see her Colorado cousins again soon!
Piper is very patient with me as I learn how to be the best mom I can be while going to school full-time. She really is such a trooper. I am so grateful that I get to be her mom. There is not a better suited baby for our family. I always knew that I wanted to be a mom but I never imagined that it would be this amazing. I am truly blessed.

6 Months

Can you believe my baby is half a year old?
This should not be possible.
She shouldn't be allowed to get any bigger.
Six months is a good age.
Anyone have an age-stopping formula?

This month has been full of fun discoveries.
Piper is this () close to crawling. She scoots around all over the apartment, in fact, we can't get her to stay still. Ever. The past couple of days she has begun doing pushups. She pushes her whole body up in the air, tucks her legs under her and tries to move. Most of the time it just results in a Mowgli look.

We use pillows and nursing pillows to cover up all the corners in our house (translation: our house always looks messy). 

She can sit up on her own, but it usually doesn't last very long because she immediately sees something she wants and grabs for it. 

Piper continues to have a love for books, although lately she'd rather eat them than listen to them. However, we always have books close to her in hopes that she will grow up to love reading just like her momma. 

The doctor is always amazed at how observant she is and how she actively tries to get EVERYTHING. 

The big news this month is that her first tooth cut through! It is sharper than a razor and has hurt me on more than one occasion! If it's possible, her tooth has made her even more adorable. 

She is also sleeping in her crib! It's been a hard transition for all of us. I miss her at night and wish she could continue sleeping in bed with us, but I know that she needs to be in her own crib. She's a big girl and has proven this to me by only waking up once most nights. *sigh* Where did my baby go? The best part about her sleeping in her crib at night, and during naps, is that now when I go in to get her after she wakes up she gives me a hug.  

Piper loves to squeal! She has started making this little high pitch sound when she talks and it melts mommy and daddy's hearts! Somehow we grow more in love with her everyday. 

She continues to put everything in her mouth, including her toes.

Her new obsession is shoes. She loves to chew on them!

We had a moment of panic this month when her skin became blotchy after eating some Gerber Spinach and Raspberry yogurt. We immediately put her in the car and began driving to the ER. On the way we called our doctor and he said just give her some baby benadryl. So we did. Catastrophe averted. 

The past six months have been better than Caleb and I could ever have imagined. We are so blessed to have a tender-hearted, happy baby as our daughter. I have loved every single second of being her mom and am so grateful that through the Plan of Salvation I get to be hers and she mine for eternity. What a wonderful blessing that is. 

Five Months Old

Time is now moving very quickly. This little baby is now five months old! She has grown so much this past month! It amazes me how much she develops in such a short amount of time. I am so grateful for every second I get to spend with her.
Here are some of the new things we are doing this month...

• Rolling over both ways
• Scooting and rolling to get her toys
• Blowing bubbles
• Attempting to chew on Mommy and Daddy's phones, computers, books, flashcards, fingers...basically if they are holding something she is eating it.
• Trying out rice cereal
• Eating her toes at every possible moment
• Almost sleeping through the night...if 10 pm to 4 am counts as almost...
• Trying to hold her bottle or pacifier in her mouth
• Trying to put her pacifier back in her mouth when it falls out
• Screaming in the car because no one is paying attention to her
• Smiling and laughing when we give her Zurberts (aka raspberry)
• Attempting to sit up on her own
• Keeping her Mommy and Daddy on their toes

All of that in just a month!!!! She is so close to crawling. There will be no stopping her once that happens. As she has begun scooting and rolling around the living room I have noticed how unsafe our apartment is. Baby-proofing will be happening very soon. 

Caleb and I are doing really well. School is almost over for the semester and then we will have a little break where we will get to see both of our families before coming back for Spring semester. I won't go into too much detail about us since you probably read my sob story last week or whenever I posted it. (If you didn't read it and want to know what I'm talking about you can read that post here Happy, Healthy, Beautiful) 

We are so blessed to have this gorgeous little girl as our own! 

*Caleb's Note*

Piper is getting really good at pulling on our heartstrings. She fusses for a little, just making grunts and such, and when she realizes we aren't going to pick her up she brings on the waterworks. It takes us a total of 5 seconds to pick her up once those start and maybe 1 second for her to stop crying those great big crocodile tears. She has us wrapped around her little fingers. 

Happy. Healthy. Beautiful.

This is my second draft.
I keep trying to take the words from my mind and put them on this electronic form of paper. Nothing is coming out the way I want it to.
I am a wife, a mom, a student.
Those are the three words that describe me.
The three words that make up my existence.
The three things that the Lord has asked me to do.
The three things that feel impossible to do together.
I can be a wife.
I can be a mom.
I can be a student.
I can do each thing individually, but lately it feels as if I cannot possibly succeed at any of them if I am doing them all together.
Being a mom is the hardest thing that I have ever done and I don't expect that it will get any easier. Without any preparation or formal teaching I suddenly have this little being to take care of. Someone who depends on me for their every need.
As a wife I expect things of myself, even if my husband doesn't. I should make dinner, keep the house clean, do the laundry, be happy, beautiful and put together.
As a mom there are certain expectations pressed upon me by society. I am supposed to exclusively breastfeed my baby because "breast is best." I am suppose to let her cry it out to fall asleep rather than holding her. I am supposed to have her on a strict sleeping schedule, she naps at this time and goes to bed at that time. I am not supposed to let her sleep in my bed because co-sleeping leads to death. I am not supposed to let her feed until she falls asleep because she will become dependent upon nursing. Not to mention that then I am supposed to look like I slept for 9 straight hours the night before and be a happy functioning member of society.
As a student there are things my professors expect. I am expected to go to class every day and have my homework completed. I am expected to be awake, alert and participating in the classroom discussion. I am expected to come to class clean with no baby drool down my pants or spit up on my shirt.
That's a lot of to expect of one person.
You know what? I can't do it.
I can't be perfect.
My baby drinks formula. Not all the time, but she does. She doesn't cry it out because I can't stand it. She's not on a schedule because I don't know how to implement one and I'm so busy doing homework that I don't have time to try. She sleeps in our bed because her sleeper has become too small for her, I'm not ready for her to be in her crib and I don't feel comfortable with her sleeping in her crib if she still wakes up during the night. I feed her until she falls asleep because it's the easiest way to get her to fall asleep and then I can use that time to do homework.
Yes, she is happy. Yes, she is probably dependent upon eating to fall asleep and yes, there are times where I feel like the worst mom in the world because of all these things.
I am the first of all of my friends to have a baby. There are many, many times where I feel completely alone. Sometimes all I want is someone to talk to. Someone who may understand what I'm feeling. Someone to give me a big hug and tell me that it's okay, everyone feels this way at some point.
Being a mom is hard.
Being a mom who is also a full-time student is even harder. It feels impossible.
I am lucky to have a supportive husband who reminds me everyday that this is possible. That with the Lord's help I can do this and succeed.
So, this is my new mantra; "It's okay. Piper is happy, healthy and beautiful."
Every time I feel burdened down by my own negativity, when I feel my stress levels reach unknown heights, when the task before me feels impossible, this is what I'll say. Because really, that's what matters right? Piper is happy. She's healthy. She's beautiful.
You know what else? She doesn't care that she's not on a schedule. She doesn't care that I think I'm failing her as a mom. All she cares about is that when she looks up at me with her beautiful blue eyes and gives me that toothless grin is that I smile back. All she wants is to be loved and if I can do that, if I can love her, then I haven't failed.
So, to anyone who feels the way I do,
It's okay. Your baby is happy. Your baby is healthy. Your baby is beautiful.

4 Months Old

This baby is growing up so quickly! I can't believe I have the privilege of watching her grow up! I don't have current stats on her because she hasn't been to the doctor in a month, but I will on Thursday :)
Baby girl has to get her second round of shots Thursday morning. (I'm just gonna make a little plug, VACCINATE YOUR CHILDREN! I'd like my child to be safe so vaccinate yours. Okay, done.)
It's been a big month! Although, when they are this little, aren't they all?
Piper rolled over from her back to her tummy this month! The first FOUR times she did this we didn't even see it! We'd put her on her back and the next thing we know, we look over and she's on her tummy! Then when we stare at her waiting for her to roll over, she wouldn't! She's such a stinker.
In fact, she loves to be a stinker! When we make her laugh we can only use the same material once. We could do something that will make her laugh and laugh but if we do the same thing just five minutes later she doesn't laugh anymore! She's a tough critic.
This month she has discovered her toes and loves to grab them. It's hard to get her to stop grabbing her toes!
She loves fingers.
She loves Mommy's hair.
She loves her Daddy. Her face lights up whenever he walks into the room.
She continues to love staring at herself in the mirror...or any reflective surface.
She has started to play with toys and loves her playmat from Grammy and PaPaw.
We are STILL not sleeping through the night. Mommy will be talking to the doctor about that on Thursday.
She is very bashful. When you smile at her she gets excited and hides her face.
We still have to trick her into smiling for pictures.
She is settling into her bedtime routine.
We are so lucky to have this baby girl.

Life as Mommy is perfect. It's incredibly hard and seems to get harder as she gets older (which is totally backwards, right?).

Last night I broke down when I realized that Piper is getting too big for her sleeper and soon we will have to move her to her crib. I know this is a traumatic experience for most mom's, but for me there's an added sadness to it. I don't get to spend as much time with her as I'd like. I miss out on hours of watching her growing up. When I get home homework is supposed to be a priority. I feel guilty every day because my time isn't spent how I want it to be. Having Piper sleep next to me feels like a little more time I get to spend with her...it's a comfort. When she moves to her own room that's 8 more hours I'm not with her. I'm not ready.

Being my friend is hard. It's hard because I don't want to go out anymore. My time is not meant for going out to eat, hanging out at someone's apartment, etc. My time is meant for my husband and my baby. I still love to spend time with friends, but I need friends who understand that I come with a baby now. I want to hang out, but I want to do it from my own home, with my baby. When I do go out, it's a huge ordeal. You have to pack a lot of things to make sure you're prepared for anything a baby can throw your way. Going out is more work than it's worth sometimes. I am grateful for the friends I have who come over to my place and play with my baby. I am grateful for the friends who don't flake out on me because I can't go out. I am grateful for these people. Being a mom is hard, but perfect.